so hard to be okay, but its proving to be a grueling feat. You told me to be happy so Im doing it for you, thats the only reason why I try. Its harder than it seems because you are my source of joy. I just want you. I need you. I dont feel like myself without you.
You are my everything.
I know I sound repetitive and melodramatic, even a little desperate but its the solemn truth.
I am digging myself into a hole deeper than rock bottom and as hard as I try to resist, I keep going. You are the cause of my downfall and yet you brought me up so high.
I can't figure out what to do anymore.
Why bother figuring it out?
